Hit The Switch - Manic Heart Disease

Can't stop the hell you said but you didn't even try
And what reasons did you use to make it seem alright
And it's been getting old and I'm not fighting for your time
It's just that I want to get by
So Ill just keep myself inside
Cause no one needs to know about the old critical me
There's unstoppable sadness and I'm not moving on with it i know there's still this pain and guilt I feel within we all should know
Just what it's like to live like them
To really need help and never get it

Not that it matters quite as much to me
I know I'm not the same
And all of that time I spent alone I still lost myself to this
And when I look back I want to know that I did what I could with this
To give all I can give
In someone's last defense

I know we're not incapable
We just dismiss the warning signs
Were so detached from feeling what they might excused from the collective guilt
The margin shifts
But then no one stops to give a shit so

I wont force a smile
When everyone is having so much fun
It just doesn't feel right
I can't forget why everything's so sad
Wnd it's digging out my heart until nothings left
The house we built within stands in contempt

Then I felt so ashamed we took all were allowed gave nothing back I pray for wild teeth cut right across my neck
Spill my insides are worth way more than Im meant to keep
And when I'm gone it's not in vein
Their lives are not ours to forsaken

Some were all lost some way out there
Some where those lost they're hope and care
And some hold on instead
Left open all gather to stare
And their eyes tell stories going nowhere
The point fades in and out of view
This wasn't meant for us take
Can't put it back once it's been changed!

The more I try I learn how not you run away from all my problems
Pulling back to find what caused them all this time

I kept it to myself in fear of everything that's left
It falls apart and I'm not strong enough to keep the dark at bay
This is where I remain

I won't let you know
I'll stay on my own
I'm stuck in this place that's never been home
And I'm still here alone!

It never changed these outer shells
Won't keep me warm at night where resentment and my silence grow

I know this all falls on me
And I can't be there for you when it comes apart I have let you down
Just tell me what you need

And as it softly puts down to sleep
And all you have to do is die here next to me
When we both lie beneath this crumbled world is obsolete

And fading out as we reached the edge
I still hold you close to me for one last time

Then we both drift aside