Double Negative - Looking Through The Letterbox

Eidetically remembering every bad thing done to me
Every single day the same routine subduing the screaming noise
In my head waiting to rest
It's just that sometimes I sit and wonder if things
Will ever get better than this
I now see the person I've become
It's hard to live with hating who you are

All those friends who left and gave up on me
Couldn't you see?
I needed you

Now that this past year is almost done
I feel so tired and worn but I carry on and on
The world turns I know I'm not that important
In the grand scheme of things
It's so hard to exist when even your own thoughts
Stack up against you
The nightmares are my reality and constantly
Bombarding who I am

All those word left unsaid
Are now my regrets
Discarded harmonies
Tearin up my voice

Looking at myself in the mirror I curse who I am

I dread becoming someone with the cold dead eyes
Of a person that's checked out
Shuffling through the streets bewildered and alone
Floating to oblivion